tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31568215793090802732024-03-06T01:08:17.534-07:00Bar MitzvahzillaLinda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.comBlogger224125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-47744004397702241702016-08-28T23:12:00.002-07:002016-08-29T00:10:59.027-07:00Open House Countdown<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Husband and I went to the high school open house last night, our seventh one now, starting with our son's entry into high school (Bar Mitzvahzilla, not quite thirteen anymore as a junior in college.) This is basically a sped up day of our kid's schedule, ten minutes per class and a passing period in which all the parents are hoofing it through the hallways, stumbling around lost, peering farsightedly at school maps.<br />
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Other years there has been this: parents we know, socializing, stopping in the hallways almost like we're in high school just for that one night, talking until the bell rings, dashing into our kids' classes late. We'd run into neighborhood friends, synagogue friends, Jewish community friends, maybe business friends. Sometimes we weren't exactly sure how we knew specific people - were they from our brief sojourn as Reform, rather than Conservative, Jews five years before? Were they from the the charter school our son went to from third to fifth grade? Where on the map of our lives, both separate and joint, did these people fall? And, more importantly, had we completely lost our minds that we were no longer sure?<br />
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But this time we walked quietly along, undisturbed, interrupted only once, by another parent eager to see one familiar face. Our voices were scratchy from non-use. We were on time for every class, sitting quietly in our seats. We are reminded with a thud that this, too is coming to an end, just like preschool came to an end, and elementary school, and middle school. We're on the Open House countdown and we only have two more.<br />
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I realized suddenly that I hadn't just been going to these open houses for the chance to meet the teachers and put them on red alert that Daughter or Son has a pair of lunatic parents at the ready if they should do something off the edge (and somehow I have a perfect instinct for where that edge is.) But I'd apparently also been going there for the other part of the experience, to run into friends, to share the experience, all too fleeting, that we're high school parents here in this moment in time with all of its insanities, all of its SAT-preparedness, with all of its student-driveredness, with it boiling down to one central concept: we are parents of teenagers yet our own teen years feel like just a moment away, like I could walk in the next classroom and find myself instead, the 70s version, and there'd be no surprise.<br />
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The English teacher outlines her strict cell phone policy - phones in backpacks and backpacks in the back of the room - one which has infuriated Daughter and has our full approval. Our eyes gleam at this thwarting of the teenaged will.<br />
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And just as she's finishing up, just by chance, just in that teacher's classroom, friendless and almost run out of there by all the younger parents, Husband gets a call and takes it, right there in the classroom.<br />
<br />Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-39430296430289875992013-11-03T21:35:00.000-07:002013-11-03T21:35:57.416-07:00Encyclopedia Dad<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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We're sitting at the dinner table eating, I don't know, chicken, I guess. Something unimportant. It's just another night, or another football Sunday night, I should say, when Daughter makes the horrible, horrible mistake of asking Husband a question about some football play - a fair catch.<br />
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He answers the question. We seemingly move onto other topics - nice topics, like how I forced her to go to something Jewish today and she did after screaming her head off about it last night, and had a nice time. I am starting to roll on this topic because there's no topic I like better than the topic of how the kids yell and scream about not wanting to go to something they turn out loving, when suddenly, Husband, who I guess hadn't really been talking, answers her football question again, with more information. <br />
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And then he expounds on it, elaborating various scenarios in which the player might like to catch the ball one way or another - approaching this simple, tiny question that she asked with the rigor of a Talmudic scholar. <br />
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On and on and on and on.<br />
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Daughter looks at me from across the table in some anguish. Do I hear the silent plea, the "What have I done?" <br />
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And, of course, she should know better. Husband cannot be asked a simple question. He has a mind like an encyclopedia - there's an inexhaustible amount of information in there. Days from now he will be asking her to get out a pencil and paper and a compass or triangle, perhaps, to draw up some possible diagrams. Or maybe he will have downloaded some great examples of fair catches on the Internet, website after website, to elaborate more fully on the issue, and compared how this play is not allowed in Canada for the following reasons but only in the US. <br />
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In other words, Husband cannot be asked a question.<br />
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When the kids were smaller and enrolled in math classes with material that I understood, they learned quickly which parent to ask for help. Ask mom and get the answer. Ask dad and get a series of questions, word problems and, yes, diagrams and real-life models of the problem. An answer would, of course, not suffice. There was that deeper thing below the answer, that OCD thing, that bedrock of knowledge thing, where all math begins, prehistoric math. <em>That's</em> what he's getting at - to fully explain the answer.<br />
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Finally, sometime after the chicken is gone, the grill cleaned, the dishwasher loaded, the leftovers put away, the kitchen cleaned up, lunches made and showers taken; sometime after Husband has run through every possible answer to this football question, it stops.<br />
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But only because Daughter has gone to sleep.<br />
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<em>Are you the exhaustive answer type of parent or the answer-giving type of parent or something in between? </em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-66790276278318403592013-09-02T22:48:00.001-07:002013-09-02T22:48:54.548-07:00Mom, Mind Reader<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It's 7:40 AM and rather than being in bed, where I should be, I'm in an unusual place: sitting outside my daughter's new middle school, parked in the parking lot with the window cracked open to hear the bell, and watching the clock tick.<br />
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Next to me, of course, is Daughter.<br />
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She's gone to a Jewish Day School from Kindergarten through seventh grade. Suddenly, last year, she was through. Not the most courageous kid, yet she wanted to move on. <br />
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Husband and I were flabbergasted. We were committed to Jewish education - full Jewish education, like through eighth grade since we don't have a Jewish high school. She'd never been interested in leaving before. We'd had a few forays into public school before, most of which ended badly. But Cheap Husband was thrilled about one thing in particular: no tuition. And I was interested in Daughter being happier, with more social opportunities. So we began looking into it, touring, taking placement tests.<br />
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And she left, moving from an eighth grade class of ten to an eighth grade class of four hundred.<br />
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I can't always relate exactly to everything my kids go through but this, this starting over at a school in eighth grade -- this sometimes feels like the central narrative of my life. My family moved out to Arizona from Skokie just in time for me to start eighth grade. The nightmares of that year can still make me wake up in a cold sweat at night. This whole experience has made me unusually perceptive, almost a mind reader. Good skills to have when dealing with the teenaged Daughter.<br />
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Each day, after school now, we talk about the events of her day. I use my Mom Mind Reader skills to ferret out any troubles, troubleshoot any difficulties, offer advice. But there's this one thing, the thing that leads us to sitting in the car at 7:40 AM each morning. <br />
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Math's going well, Social Studies is going well, so is English and PE and Science. Lunch is even going well, though each day her group shifts and morphs. Success looms before me when, three weeks in, Daughter informs me that she's no longer a "new kid." I am astounded, mostly because I felt like a new kid in Arizona from the day I started eighth grade to the day I graduated high school. <br />
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So it's just this morning thing.<br />
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Each morning from the time kids arrive till the bell rings at 7:56, they gather in a huge courtyard socializing. Has anyone ever imagined how terrifying this might be for new kids? It's not that there's bullying, because there isn't. But there's the more subtle problem of non-inclusion, of the established kids hanging with their friends and not talking to anyone they don't know. We've all done it.<br />
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So she sits. Then the bell rings and she flies out of the car to her first period class. And as I begin backing out of my space I see she's not the only one. All over the parking lot I see other kids who were sitting in their cars, all waiting out the bell, all dashing from their mind reader moms' sides to their classes the minute the bell rings.<br />
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<em>Have you ever started over, or watched as your children have?</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-59081933644763757512013-08-19T23:14:00.000-07:002013-08-19T23:14:47.175-07:00Physical Education, Circa 2013<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Daughter just transferred from her Jewish Day School to public school for eighth grade. Yes, her first time in public school since Kindergarten. And, happy to say, she's having a blast.<br />
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Everyday we sit down on my bed and we run through how things are going. One of her electives is PE, which she likes for social reasons but doesn't like for one very specific reason: they have to dress out each day, which means undressing in front of other girls.<br />
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So I asked, "What are you doing in there? Is it hard?" <br />
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Who knows, maybe they're running laps in the 109 degree Arizona heat?<br />
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She said, "We're just dancing. Line dancing. Working on choreography and some hip hop."<br />
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Wait a minute. She's got to be kidding. <br />
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You mean there's no fifty foot rope suspended from the ceiling rafters and an angry PE teacher, who not only hates you but also your five sisters before you, pointing to it, to you and saying, "Climb?"<br />
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You mean there's no gymnastics horse which you have to leap over, grasping the handles, as if you're Nadia Comaneci, the gym teacher now waiting for you to fall on the other side?<br />
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No embarrassing weigh-ins called out from the scale? No lecture the first day of class about how no one should bother complaining about monthly cramps because they weren't getting out of PE and they weren't getting out of dressing out? No one-piece 100% cotton unitard gym suit that snapped up the middle and pulled when you grew? No showers looming threateningly in the locker room? No girls watching from other lockers to see if you'd worn your <em>Monday</em> underwear two days in a row and then hooting and hollering about it?<br />
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You mean they're teaching up to date dancing instead of the square dancing I was taught - something I have never, ever used again?<br />
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Line dancing? Hip hop?<br />
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She'd better get an A.<br />
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<em>Any traumatic childhood PE memories out there?</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-84215529531554790422013-06-01T00:44:00.000-07:002013-06-01T00:44:29.983-07:00I Don't Have a Headache, I Have a Thirteen-Year-Old<br />
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I'm driving Daughter to school one day last week and I know I've got to tell her that she lost her allowance for the week but I'm dreading it. Am I dreading it because I hate to take away her money? No, she's miserly enough that she's probably got millions stashed around the house. Am I dreading it because it's too harsh a punishment for a few missed chores -- in other words, is my mother's heart weakening? Again, no. This child misses so many chores so much of the time, she has to have missed egregious amounts to finally lose her allowance. If I just counted the chores she made for me by her constant carrying things from one area of the house and dropping them off in another, I would earn a tidy allowance. <br />
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I'm dreading breaking it to her because there are better places than the interior of a car to have a thirteen-year-old pitch a fit and start screaming her head off. <br />
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But I can't resist. It's become our fight-a-day, the ride to school, whatever she's mad about that particular day, and this, her money, she will scream about all the way there: As I leave our neighborhood, turn onto the major street, drive down three miles, turn again, drive up two miles, and deposit her at the school doors, only the door slamming shut restoring the car to silence. <br />
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She breaks the sound barrier as we drive down the road. Maybe even the windows. And that's when I realize I have a headache. And then I think, wait a minute. It's kind of early for a headache - only eight in the morning! I haven't really even done enough today to get a headache. Then then I realize the truth: I don't have a headache, I have a thirteen-year-old.<br />
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When Daughter was born, Husband and I looked on her with some bewilderment. After all, our first baby had weighed a pound and a half at birth. Who was this gigantic, loud, crying, jaundiced child, weighing in at a whopping six pounds nine ounces? Bar Mitzvahzilla hadn't even gone home with us for nearly ten weeks. We practically had to break him out of the hospital at the end, the doctors were so reluctant to release him, so reluctant to try him on outside air. But with Daughter there was no delay; she was ours driving home just a few days after birth. <br />
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Husband and I had been rightfully worried about Bar Mitzvahzilla -- born so tiny, he had come home with an apnea monitor and oxygen tubing. Once he moved out of our bedroom, we bought a sophisticated monitor just so we could listen to his every sound. If I could have crawled in the crib with him, honestly, I would have. But after Daughter moved out of our room and proved that her cries needed no amplification, no monitor, no microphone, to travel from one side of the house to the other, we gave the monitor away. We both felt completely confident that this child wasn't going anywhere without yelling her head off. <br />
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Of course, we were right. And, of course, I don't have a headache, just a little residual thirteen-year-old, recently disembarked from the car, clearing up a little later in the day, and to return about pickup time.<br />
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<em>Have you lived through your child's adolescence? Did you find that they had just the right combination of screams to bring on a headache? Any baby screamers not needing monitors?</em><br />
<br />Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-26181309381390252012013-05-20T00:04:00.000-07:002013-05-20T00:05:30.610-07:00The Psychology of Soup<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I made soup this last week. While this isn't earth-shattering news, it also doesn't mean that I cranked open a can of Campbell's either. See, I inherited a Soup Gene from my maternal grandmother and that means I don't just make soup, I understand soup, like in a Freudian way.<br />
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I think it was back when I was in college and had finally moved into a place with a stove that I called my mother for her Barley Soup recipe. Growing up, Barley Soup and Latkes were two of the only things I'd eat since I appear to have been born with a distinctly Jewish palate. She informed me the first ingredient was water.<br />
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"Water? To make soup?" This sounded fishy to me. I'm a little stupid in a kitchen but I would say the first ingredient should have been anything but water. <br />
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Then she rattled off a quick list of everything else that needed to be tossed in the pot, with a perfunctory slice here and there: onions, carrots, potatoes, beef short ribs. The mystery of the bay leaf. <br />
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"Oh, and barley," she said. "You should probably put in barley. Though I once made barley soup without barley and Dad didn't even notice." <br />
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So that's how I make Barley Soup; I just start dumping ingredients into a pot. If I have too many ingredients, and I always do, I go to a second pot. Etcetera. This is how I end up being the go-to-soup-gal for all my sick friends, how I freeze gigantic Tupperware containers full of soup and how I provided my stepfather with soup that he ate sparingly, in impossibly tiny amounts, during his last eight months in Arizona. <br />
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So it's really no surprise that the week after he passed away I suddenly found myself with this urge to make soup. Maybe the soup will make me feel better, since I can't save him. Maybe it'll answer the question of where exactly my elderly are for whom I used to make soup? If I make soup and bring it over there, will he just magically appear, regaling me with tales about how he takes my soup and then makes rice to thicken it and extend its usefulness? How magic is this soup anyway?<br />
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I would say, "Bob, the soup will go bad, you're making it last too long. It won't be good in a week."<br />
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But he looks at me like only someone who grew up during the Depression can, only someone who saves paper and plastic bags, only someone who still pronounces Cincinnati "Cincinnata," and says, "You should try it, Linda! One small box of Uncle Ben's - here I'll show you - and I won't need any more food for weeks!"<br />
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Here's what I used to know: I could take one of my gigantic soup pots, put water in it and a bunch of other things and an hour or two later I would have food. From water. From nothing. Food that could keep people alive.<br />
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Here's what I know now: I can't. <br />
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<em>Are you in charge of any signature family recipes? Has your family been touched by frugality? Missing anyone?</em><br />
<br />Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-17543785365103192182013-05-09T23:00:00.000-07:002013-05-13T00:39:00.363-07:00A Life in Fifteen Lines or Less<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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From time to time I read the obituaries. Like just in case someone I know has actually passed away and I didn't know, or because I'm a writer and I read between the lines - looking at the birth and death dates, the life histories, the old people whose obituaries are accompanied by their picture from World War II. And sometimes I read them because we just need to pay attention. They're there and they memorialize someone's life and I can give them my time.<br />
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So I was really surprised when pricing obituaries yesterday, how much it costs to run one. Two hundred dollars for one day and fifteen lines. More for extra days and lines, and even more for a photograph. Somewhere in my naive little mind I thought these ran as community announcements, as community service. Not as ads.<br />
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If you read this blog back in 2009 and 2010 you may remember the madcap adventures of the elderly in my life - my Holocaust Survivor Jewish mother and my Ohio Farmer Methodist Stepfather. Her yelling and his deafness, which actually made an ideal combination; his constant puttering, gluing and winching, involved in dozens of mystifying projects around the house, like gluing together ice cube trays and winching broken laundry baskets, because nothing ever needed to be replaced, yet the house was still falling down around their heads. And my mother sat in her place on the couch in the family room, phones and remote controls in front of her - her command center - the living switchboard of our seven daughter family. Who knew those were the good old days?<br />
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But then there was decline and a decision that our mother needed to live with one of us due to her need for twenty-four hour a day care. Stepfather did not want to make the same move. He continued puttering about the empty house, still busy with projects, with ham radio, with driving his truck fifteen miles an hour down the road seeking garage sale finds. I saw him often, brought soup. But still I thought, he's 87. He can't live there alone forever.<br />
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There were a lot of options available to him, one of which was to move to be close to one of his daughters. And I swear he was alive and well this past January as he shuffled off with his kids, the yard sale items with which the house had been filled compressed finally into six suitcases and a mobile mini.<br />
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Who knows what it is that keeps a person in one piece, that keeps a person going? Who knows what strange collection of circumstances and location and relationships - and maybe glue and winches - keep a person going? Because by the end of March, and his 88th birthday, Stepfather was hospitalized, and on May 6th he passed away. <br />
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And on May 9th I was on a website trying to figure out how to condense the life of one man into fifteen lines and one day and found that it is impossible.<br />
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Rest in peace, Bob Milburn.Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-86219935594639830022013-05-03T01:39:00.002-07:002013-05-05T22:54:58.907-07:00The Top Ten Reasons Why I Haven't Been Blogging<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">I'm determined to start blogging again, even though I have so many excuses for why I can't. What would I start with? How can I explain an absence of over a year? So I thought I'd do a Dave Letterman-style top ten list, at least to get my brain working again.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: large;">The Top Ten Reasons Why I Haven't Been Blogging</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">10.</span> The last year has seen me become the mother of two teenagers. Should I stop here?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">9.</span> Daughter has grown about 12 inches and gained 42 pounds in the last three years. Can you even imagine how much food has gone into that child to sustain that kind of growth? As far as her height, every time I look away, I look back and it's like a time-elapsed video. Suddenly she's looking me in the eye. And just in case anyone is worried - because who would want to gain 42 pounds in three years? - she now weighs 101 and stands 5'5. Still a Skinny Stick.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="color: black; font-size: large;">8.</span> <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1359333630&sr=8-1" target="_blank">My book.</a> I'm not going to say much about this because God forbid I promote myself, but the book takes a lot of time. It lived inside my head for so many years, and then it lived inside my computer for several more, so having it out in the world has been amazing, but it's kind of like having an extra child who doesn't live at home. I worry about it. Turns out worrying is also a full-time job. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">7.</span> I started doing yoga last year in addition to my regular exercise. Trust me, this whole over-exercising thing takes up a lot of time. Also, not being the most bendy gal on the planet, yoga has been very interesting. Interesting in that I still can't touch my toes and, just when I'm supposed to be all spiritual and concentrating on my breathing, I'm always somehow adjusting my clothing. In summary, I've found that after a year I'm very good at one thing in yoga: corpse pose.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">6.</span> My book won an award (yea) and there have been various things associated with that, including the <a href="http://www.writersdigestconference.com/ehome/51706/schedule/" target="_blank">Writer's Digest Conference - East</a>, and some interviews. Whenever I used to read in Writer's Digest about people who had won the award I won, I always assumed they were famous and about to get a gazillion dollar deal for their books. Just FYI, I'm still not rich and famous. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">5.</span> Both and over achiever and under achiever, procrastinator and perfectionist, I keep taking classes to satisfy my zillions of ambitions. In just the last three months this has included an <a href="http://www.thetorchtheatre.com/" target="_blank">intro to Improv</a> class, <a href="http://www.motherswhowrite.com/" target="_blank">Mothers Who Write</a> and <a href="http://www.writingclasses.com/" target="_blank">Playwriting</a>. Of course, I want to do everything and am fighting the knowledge that I'm just going to have to lock myself in the house to produce my second book. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">4.</span> Meanwhile, back at my desk, I'm writing that second book, a sequel to <em><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1359333630&sr=8-1" target="_blank">Looking Up</a></em>. Its working, and somewhat facetious, title is Jewish Girls Gone Wild. Yes, it's about my teen years.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">3.</span> I was blindsided by the elderly parents getting increasingly elderly, and, having written so many posts about their foibles, found it difficult to write once their decline became apparent. Who knew that one day I'd be looking nostalgically back to when they were their spry 79 and 84-year-old selves? Yet, that is true. It was increasingly hard to be humorous. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">2.</span> Did I mention the teenagers? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">And the number one reason I haven't been blogging is...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">1.</span> Bat Mitzvahzilla. It's taken me six months to recover, but Daughter had her Bat Mitzvah this past October. During it she wanted me to change the name of the blog to Bat Mitzvahzilla, to which I said no; she wanted to have the kids tables set up to form an "R" for her first name, to which I said no; and wanted to have giant cut-outs of herself for people to pose with at the photo booth, to which I said... well, see for yourself.</span> <br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Husband, me and our two cut-out Bat Mitzvahzillas</span></div>
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<em>Anything keeping you from doing what you want to be doing? Any high-maintenance children in your life? Aging parents? Forty-two pound weight gains?</em><br />
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<em></em><br />Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-86322680277223564282012-01-11T23:00:00.016-07:002012-01-12T00:44:32.326-07:00Budding Shopaholic<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDGNd3iywCtDwq78FBMKsXNe8RntARTVnfl4MVgcN8i6LvH-6rhHqSeSxUdQboM7ys4S6cA34uKUv6d9YzYsCfAKW7mgOhhJVLQwSXw7CvL4ur35KKalHEO3MsjB7Zo6yJPFYC1Hw8u-8/s1600/imagesCAV6ZB28.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200px" kba="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDGNd3iywCtDwq78FBMKsXNe8RntARTVnfl4MVgcN8i6LvH-6rhHqSeSxUdQboM7ys4S6cA34uKUv6d9YzYsCfAKW7mgOhhJVLQwSXw7CvL4ur35KKalHEO3MsjB7Zo6yJPFYC1Hw8u-8/s200/imagesCAV6ZB28.jpg" width="181px" /></a></div><br />
It's a typical Monday evening. Daughter and I drop off Bar Mitzvahzilla at his tutoring and then, since we're stuck in North Scottsdale for an hour, I drive over to a shopping center that has a rare treat: a Nordstrom Rack. <br />
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But first I have to convince the twelve-year-old. Somehow I've raised a non-shopper. She doesn't want to go clothes shopping, she declares. She'd rather go to Michael's and buy more craft project items that we'll never use and end up stuffing in a closet somewhere. <br />
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I drag her in there and get ready to do some power shopping, or at least power looking. By then we only have about half an hour before we have to get back to pick up Bar Mitzvahzilla so map out my shopping expedition well. I decide I can only handle a foray through the shoe department. <br />
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Well, lucky me. Daughter and I are the same shoe size suddenly. Both 7s.<br />
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Then something happens. While I'm looking, and eliminating, and eventually buying nothing at all, Daughter has a tweeny/teeny moment. She has a moment in which she suddenly bursts from being a gangly, wild, child thing into being a woman. <br />
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Basically, she commandeers the cart, careens through the shoe department and picks out about twenty pairs of shoes. <br />
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I nod my head knowingly. I knew the shoe gene - not to mention the shopaholic gene - had to be passed down somewhere. She might have been pretending all these years with her resistance to shopping but look what happened when I got her in that forest of shoe racks! Though, of course, I can't buy her twenty pairs of shoes. Turns out that right at that moment that she's turning into me I turn into my own father. I say, "What do you think - I'm made out of money?" Neither of us has ever heard me say this before. She has to eliminate all but one pair.<br />
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The next week, I tell her we should go to Old Navy for our break during tutoring. She gives me a thunderous look. She doesn't want to go. She can't stand to go. Why does she have --<br />
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She walks in, sniffs the air, and immediately starts stacking clothes in my hand. The next thing I know she's in the dressing room.<br />
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Born of a shopaholic and a cheapskate, she'll never know a moment's peace. And neither will I.<br />
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<em>Are you a shopper or frugal? Have you ever noticed that you've passed those traits on to your children? Are you turning into your own parents?</em><br />
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Thanks for reading, <br />
Linda Pressman, Author of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1326354148&sr=8-1">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</a>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-2836208186339117362011-12-11T23:53:00.006-07:002011-12-13T00:05:07.706-07:00The Voice from the Bed<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlnLY_iUJia27b_XbdQNbYkdlF5kdaUqphItyvwsT7Zw2iTbPiC5cor_bkA3txsbUwY9KCkjOk4eOMnLTpZd5_E11fMhn-EMZf0vd1dXuQUgNusr2gFjecIn0ffoCDC3qkWADKPY2v1Z4/s1600/29848-clip-art-graphic-of-a-sick-male-patient-in-a-hospital-bed-by-djart.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="80px" mda="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlnLY_iUJia27b_XbdQNbYkdlF5kdaUqphItyvwsT7Zw2iTbPiC5cor_bkA3txsbUwY9KCkjOk4eOMnLTpZd5_E11fMhn-EMZf0vd1dXuQUgNusr2gFjecIn0ffoCDC3qkWADKPY2v1Z4/s200/29848-clip-art-graphic-of-a-sick-male-patient-in-a-hospital-bed-by-djart.jpg" width="200px" /></a></div><br />
My mother was sick recently. Like really sick. Hospitalized sick. <br />
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First there was my mom at 80 - spry, the mall walking, seniorcizing ball of energy. Then there was her auto accident a little over a year ago and things changed. Suddenly there was my mom, her couch, her TV remote and her phones lined up in front of her. A smaller life and an older mom where suddenly taking a walk meant walking to the kitchen.<br />
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So she got sick like that, just sitting on the couch with not even a breeze blowing by and it was the usual mayhem in the hospital - seven sisters showing up here and there, and grandchildren and husbands and the nurses wondering exactly how many offspring one woman could have anyway?<br />
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I knew I had to leave for Chicago right before she was getting out since I was appearing at a <a href="http://www.juf.org/northwest/newsletters/default2.aspx?id=413029">Jewish United Fund</a> event for my book but how was I supposed to leave her that way?<br />
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I was pondering that, sitting in the hospital room, the oxygen machine hissing away, watching the IV drip, when I suddenly heard my mom's voice from the bed. <br />
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"What are you wearing for the presentation? You bought something new?"<br />
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Like swimming out of the murky depths of old age, my mother suddenly reappeared before me, as evidenced by her lifelong obsession with the buying of clothes. I breathed a sigh of relief. Nothing could convince me my mother was on the mend more than her quizzing me about clothes.<br />
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(that's me in the center at JUF event)<br />
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She looks at me askance. She's unhappy, but not exactly with my outfit. She's unhappy that I've taken care of it already and out of my own closet without going shopping. Going shopping in my closet doesn't count. With my mother every event must be shopped for anew even if you have the clothes already. Then she moves on to a different event.<br />
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"What about for Joan Rivers?" Somehow, she can't remember how to boil an egg but she remembers my itinerary in Chicago with a mind like a steel trap.<br />
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"Gray dress, black jacket, black boots and tights." <br />
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She nods but I can tell that she's a little let down. She really wanted to plot out a shopping trip, a meandering path of me traipsing from store to store to store searching for the perfect outfit. Or, based on her history as a lifelong seamstress, her sewing it for me. <br />
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When I see that she's about to question me about all the other clothes I'll be wearing and, more importantly, whether I'll be dressed warm enough, I take over and I become the mother again.<br />
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When I return from Chicago, she's out of the hospital but back on the couch, the oxygen hissing next to her. But there's still part of her there. I visit her the morning after we return, sit down next to her on that couch. She says, "How'd the outfit go?" <br />
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<em>Is there any one topic that your parent(s) love talking about or that you know when they bring it up that they're on the mend? Any aging parent issues? </em><br />
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<span style="color: #741b47;"><strong><em><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Linda Pressman</span> </em></strong></span><br />
<em><span style="color: #741b47;"><strong><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Author of </span><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1323671364&sr=8-1"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</span></a></strong></span></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-86226343298122103162011-12-04T22:54:00.003-07:002011-12-05T00:25:27.433-07:00My Mother's Closet (a Faceshuk post)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiF7IINNgb9YaaPKHJ3a8vPJTL9qjwgNa-gJqi77ToS41hoiC1ncRvJt9fOj0zQJF1jVL08ImFLu1yddNBhrVSwnf6th0Z6-iHLtadOPlzvU2u299CfsbO8AALPlqXmZWkRAOflGbjjFfc/s1600/closet_door.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" dda="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiF7IINNgb9YaaPKHJ3a8vPJTL9qjwgNa-gJqi77ToS41hoiC1ncRvJt9fOj0zQJF1jVL08ImFLu1yddNBhrVSwnf6th0Z6-iHLtadOPlzvU2u299CfsbO8AALPlqXmZWkRAOflGbjjFfc/s1600/closet_door.gif" /></a></div>Daughter is now twelve. This means a few things. Like she's sprouted up to over 5'3. (Though, somehow, she still only weighs 89 pounds...) It also means adolescence - female adolescence - has set in causing her to fight with me each day like I fought with my mother before me.<br />
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But it also means this: her clothes doesn't fit anymore or they're too babyish, or not cool enough, or any of a thousand other reasons she can no longer wear them. She stomps into my bathroom while I'm getting ready each morning, says she needs to go shopping, and then goes shopping. Right then. In my closet. <br />
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On the one hand I know I should be pretty grateful she wants to go in there. I am 39 years older than her, after all. Also, I'm glad that we actually fit in some of the same clothes especially since I don't weigh anywhere near 89 pounds. But what's the chance of me having anything hip enough for her? <br />
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Turns out that the clothes that are now too young for me are just the right age for her. The clothes I monitor carefully, aware that there's a thin line between dressing well and looking like I'm longing for the 1970s and my own teen years. The stuff that doesn't make the cut gets trotted out for the tween. <br />
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This wasn't something I could do when I was a kid in Skokie. First of all, even if our mother's clothes had been attractive to us, I had five older sisters who would have gotten there first. Second, her clothes were never going to appeal to us. I was 12 in 1972, for goodness sakes. I wanted - needed - hippyish clothes, maybe a leather bandanna for my forehead, a halter top, bell bottom baggy jeans, maybe a fringed vest. <br />
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My mother's closet was not the place to find these items. The most noticeable thing upon opening its door was the smell of mothballs. Then there were the brocade dresses, the handmade suits, the torturous pumps, the foundation garments. My mother's clothes could actually stand up and walk around by themselves, they were that stiff, they didn't need a human body in them. For a free-wheeling 12-year-old who didn't want to dress like Jackie Onassis, that wasn't the look I was going for. <br />
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But here in Scottsdale, in 2011, with a mom who writes at home and has her professional clothes gathered neatly in one side of the closet, it's a windfall for the kid. She looks around at the clothes I think would be perfect for her, rejects them all, steals my favorite top off its hanger and sneaks off before I completely notice what she's doing.<br />
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As I'm exiting the bathroom I notice another thing: Bar Mitzvahzilla coming in half-dressed, insisting he also has no clothes to wear. The last thing I see is him heading off to his own shopping spree - in Husband's closet.<br />
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<em>Did you ever "shop" in your mom's or sister's closets? Can you? Does your daughter "shop" in yours?</em><br />
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Thanks for reading!<br />
<em><span style="color: blue;"><strong>Linda Pressman, author of Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</strong></span></em><br />
Available on <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1323069071&sr=8-1">Amazon</a>, <a href="http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/looking-up-linda-pressman/1100449838">Barnes & Noble</a>, <a href="http://www.booksamillion.com/p/Looking-Up/Linda-Pressman/9781456470685?id=5230692450168">Books-a-Million</a>, <a href="http://www.indiebound.org/book/9781456470685">Indiebound</a>, in many local libraries, and at <a href="http://www.changinghands.com/book/9781456470685">Changing Hands</a> in Tempe.<br />
(The "Faceshuk" in the title and this code: 3daa678fe7c57f042a0645dfc6668578 are intended to establish my blog ownership on the Faceshuk site. Check it out!)Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-29164935371917678602011-10-26T22:38:00.003-07:002011-10-28T01:28:53.971-07:00Animals Past and Present<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUFnwb6Q2SIfor8ZF7mrQFHs7Q4abk5jsMgIga112FJI7LOCsDuQb-AIMkTwiRAvl-TLg-PikdK8Vdo8F26wTmyiIop5G3WIqjNJ8QzsauHh00w8LLFDkgg0VXRa6kxh1srYotg1pPSa0/s1600/graffiti-cats-th.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" ida="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUFnwb6Q2SIfor8ZF7mrQFHs7Q4abk5jsMgIga112FJI7LOCsDuQb-AIMkTwiRAvl-TLg-PikdK8Vdo8F26wTmyiIop5G3WIqjNJ8QzsauHh00w8LLFDkgg0VXRa6kxh1srYotg1pPSa0/s1600/graffiti-cats-th.png" /></a></div><div align="center"></div>I'm sitting at my desk, working diligently, when two furry animals suddenly decide to stand on top of my work area, blocking out my screen. <br />
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Oh yeah. They're my cats. Our bright idea of about six months ago: adopting sister kittens.<br />
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We thought that our kids should have pets before they completely grew up; that it would help them stop being self-centered and care about something smaller than themselves. In that we were right. What I didn't expect was that with their silent, mysterious presence and their baleful glares when their food bowl is empty, how much I have to stand around staring at the cats, trying to read their minds, asking them to lead me to whatever is wrong, like Rin Tin Tin or Lassie.<br />
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I finally realize what this all reminds me of. It reminds me of the worst days of being single; in particle, of what it was like being in a relationship with the very Bad Boyfriend I once had.<br />
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Like him, the cats don't talk much. I have to sit around trying to guess what they want, what mood they're in, try to read their minds. I never know if they like me so I wait for a little bit of parcelled out affection but end up wounded each time they run from me. They use me for food and shelter. As a matter of fact, I don't remember them ever paying for anything. And sometimes they spend the night cuddled with me and sometimes I just don't know where they are. <br />
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Basically, they're using me.<br />
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One big difference? Unlike the Bad Boyfriend, who I had delusions of marrying, I actually am married to these cats.<br />
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<em>Ever notice human traits in your animal friends? Even bad ones? Cat lover or dog lover?</em><br />
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I've had difficulties commenting on my own blog and other blogspot blogs for months, as well as other technical difficulties. Bear with me; it appears to be better now!<br />
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Linda Pressman author of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1319696186&sr=8-1">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</a><br />
<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/product-reviews/145647068X/ref=cm_cr_pr_top_recent?ie=UTF8&showViewpoints=0&sortBy=bySubmissionDateDescending">Top Rated</a> on <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1319696186&sr=8-1">Amazon</a> and available there, on <a href="http://bn.com/">bn.com</a>, local libraries and other retailers. See the tab above to read an excerpt!Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-66553820651529990792011-08-17T21:26:00.000-07:002011-08-17T23:14:41.559-07:00Jet Lagged<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho41autZPGizRUARyLXvIclZDyk98zAeAZneaY4h-HShLeRtwLHTw-4cAJroLq8IsBtHQ45PLh68PMJLfXNuciGMdsGqU01UPj6zGQxoN3JhpuqSRGb1mQ_gW6eV6Bx835bfYd1DNt_LM/s1600/tn_airplane_002.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" qaa="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho41autZPGizRUARyLXvIclZDyk98zAeAZneaY4h-HShLeRtwLHTw-4cAJroLq8IsBtHQ45PLh68PMJLfXNuciGMdsGqU01UPj6zGQxoN3JhpuqSRGb1mQ_gW6eV6Bx835bfYd1DNt_LM/s1600/tn_airplane_002.gif" /></a></div>First there was just the fact that I needed to write a blog post. After all, I had a lot to write about. It was summer in Arizona. That's always seemed to lend itself to a lot of whining. <br />
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But then, when mulling over vacation spots, I somehow convinced Husband to run wild and free and farther than he'd ever gone before. We suddenly booked four flights to Israel. With two weeks notice. <br />
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I could still have written a blog post, but then again, we only had flights booked. We had no place to stay. Can I even try to count how many nights I sat in my office instead of working, with one web browser up with a Google map of Tel Aviv, another of Jerusalem and yet another with Vacation Rentals in Israel?<br />
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There were the flights: seventeen hours there and eighteen hours back. There was the jet lag, a day on the way there and a week long after we got back. There was the crazy, mixed-up, beautiful insanity of being in Israel, of going on tours with our guide driving around hairpin turns with a Jewish Bible in one hand and the steering wheel in the other. There was my broken hair straightener, which led to me being assumed for Israeli everywhere we went, with my gigantic head of something almost resembling hair. There was the moment the four of us were crammed into a minuscule grocery store, frantically trying to buy food for the Sabbath, and staring at the all Hebrew packaging around us. We had no idea what anything was. There was standing at the Western Wall, with women all scrambling for a spot to talk to God, standing there crying, one next to another.<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">And just when I was figuring things out, just when the money wasn't looking like play money to me any longer and I could actually figure out what the change was in my wallet, just when the sounds around me started to sound familiar - like language - we left. </div><br />
<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><em>How was your summer vacation? Have you ever been on a vacation and left a piece of yourself there?</em></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><em>_________________</em></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><em><strong><span style="color: blue;">This week Kristen over at </span></strong><a href="http://mothereseblog.com/2011/08/15/looking-at-looking-up/#comments"><strong><span style="color: purple;">Motherese </span></strong></a><strong><span style="color: blue;">has posted a book review of </span></strong><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313645784&sr=8-1"><strong><span style="color: purple;">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie </span></strong></a><strong><span style="color: blue;">and will post an interview with me tomorrow. She is also giving away a copy of the book, the winner will be drawn from those who leave comments. Please head over there!</span></strong></em></div><br />
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<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF1iQrvcMQDtkGwXf2GZXqPljCDormlCNONsVI5ZwMSGdGw1Lm0KeeWAtLXTZMde_QgCzTe1WlztfOaR6ubep_VRcwA3he13ply3MDW4YpIRZkTsT2A1_Pbu2AcUE7c7RnlCB3RUPYH-Q/s1600/IMG-20110726-00115.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="300px" qaa="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjF1iQrvcMQDtkGwXf2GZXqPljCDormlCNONsVI5ZwMSGdGw1Lm0KeeWAtLXTZMde_QgCzTe1WlztfOaR6ubep_VRcwA3he13ply3MDW4YpIRZkTsT2A1_Pbu2AcUE7c7RnlCB3RUPYH-Q/s400/IMG-20110726-00115.jpg" width="400px" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiONeqtDHa3uYlbHBnghUQZG_SOgPS0-MuE02vMi8rryP01GJYE4_okYFOKytlEnVaojtFaZkPfyBczTPJKMnMow02kkam-W3J4nEe1SQa-G47BILnFitT7hNzok-TKDXYuSNz7MrLUGXY/s1600/IMG-20110726-00113.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="300px" qaa="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiONeqtDHa3uYlbHBnghUQZG_SOgPS0-MuE02vMi8rryP01GJYE4_okYFOKytlEnVaojtFaZkPfyBczTPJKMnMow02kkam-W3J4nEe1SQa-G47BILnFitT7hNzok-TKDXYuSNz7MrLUGXY/s400/IMG-20110726-00113.jpg" width="400px" /></a></div>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-33989933959417327192011-07-04T18:05:00.000-07:002011-07-04T18:09:28.655-07:00The Difference Between Boys and Girls, Part I<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhickpBu8hHJwE1A0s8MEg-XXCutkyxDSQMKCzJadWgNMhuGVdeyDvf3xg1q20yvHvg_fJnOuxa8MkuzGqlkqPhTnrDiHU820GDNBrE6AQ-xxr5J78UxholniDsTFMd2KHRk-xVMra77D0/s1600/mop_pail_brush.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" i$="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhickpBu8hHJwE1A0s8MEg-XXCutkyxDSQMKCzJadWgNMhuGVdeyDvf3xg1q20yvHvg_fJnOuxa8MkuzGqlkqPhTnrDiHU820GDNBrE6AQ-xxr5J78UxholniDsTFMd2KHRk-xVMra77D0/s1600/mop_pail_brush.jpg" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">I'm dashing off to my exercise class, leaving the almost 16-year-old watching the almost 12-year-old. They know the rules: on this particular day of the week they have to do three chores each. These chores are pretty well established and, considering how sloppily the kids do them, easily done. Stainless steel, toilets, vacuuming, mirrors, countertops.</div><br />
As I run out I say to Daughter, "No TV or computer until you do your three chores!" There's no reply, which, in retrospect, seems ominous. But I do hear a final click of her hands on the keyboard.<br />
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I finish my exercise class, get in my car and call home. Daughter answers. I ask, "What chores did you do?" I'm genuinely curious. I'm optimistic, upbeat, expecting a list in response. Maybe a list of the easiest stuff she could do, but a list nonetheless.<br />
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She says, "I didn't watch TV or go on the computer."<br />
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"So?"<br />
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"So I didn't do any chores."<br />
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I take a deep breath, not wanting to scare anyone in the parking lot I'm in by yelling loudly. I ask her to put Bar Mitzvahzilla on the phone. Although by now I'm expecting the worst, I ask him the same question, "What chores did you do?"<br />
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"Stainless steel, toilets and vacuuming. Can I go? I'm watching TV?"<br />
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Ah, the differnce between boys and girls. Part I.<br />
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<em>Ever had this sneaky over-interpretation of your instructions happen with your kids? Ever wish you had just a little more time to lay out exactly what you want them to do ahead of time, with all the possible caveats so that there are no loopholes? </em><br />
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<em><span style="color: purple;">Linda Pressman, </span></em><br />
<em><span style="color: purple;">Author of </span><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1309828040&sr=8-1"><span style="color: purple;">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</span></a><span style="color: purple;">, now on Amazon, Barnes and Noble.com, Books-a-Million, Powells, at Changing Hands, on Kindle and in libraries.</span></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-60344064907031922932011-06-23T23:32:00.000-07:002011-06-23T23:32:34.018-07:00Paper Jam<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZGoRJcM7GsGKrBfwbYGEXbe_DVCcsSQiZrW63p3XPuO5cSujGGTrIKxqWyXSsAtGs4Rhqwwwdlbeo4IW_xhXxlp1DpGqk-xyo_kL_zUsn0VKWJ7d4ieRCR7PfCrzw2C0haFCZUAkugyM/s1600/34175-Clipart-Illustration-Of-A-Businessmans-Feet-Poking-Out-From-Under-A-Stack-Of-Paperwork-On-A-White-Background.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" i$="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZGoRJcM7GsGKrBfwbYGEXbe_DVCcsSQiZrW63p3XPuO5cSujGGTrIKxqWyXSsAtGs4Rhqwwwdlbeo4IW_xhXxlp1DpGqk-xyo_kL_zUsn0VKWJ7d4ieRCR7PfCrzw2C0haFCZUAkugyM/s1600/34175-Clipart-Illustration-Of-A-Businessmans-Feet-Poking-Out-From-Under-A-Stack-Of-Paperwork-On-A-White-Background.jpg" /></a></div>Here's the scene: it's my bedroom. The bed, to be exact. Nicely made, every thing looking normal, except there's a very large and disorderly pile of papers on the bed. Very, very large. <br />
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Suddenly the pile of paper moves. It breathes. It coughs. A voice can be heard from inside the pile of papers - my voice - exclaiming at the volume of paper, the quantity of paper, the sheer duplicative quantity of paper. <br />
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Of course - it's the camp paperwork and I've gotten buried beneath it. <br />
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My kids have gone to the same summer day camp almost every summer for the last six or seven years. The first year the amount of paperwork was a terrible surprise. I paid the camp fees, filled out a nice little two-sided sheet with our family information and a credit card number and, with a smile on my face, prepared to walk away. Suddenly I was handed a brick of paperwork and told to complete the forms contained in it for each child and then registration would be complete.<br />
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There's the normal stuff in there, like the contact sheet with phone numbers, and then there's stuff like the "Get to know your camper" sheet where I have to tell them about my children's psychological foibles to maybe smooth their way through their weeks there. Husband and I have had no small amount of fun over the years imagining what we'd really like to write under "Child's Three Favorite Activities" as opposed to what we actually write there. Not to mention the "Three characteristics that best describe your child." There's the challah order form, the lunch order form, the aftercare form - which needs to be filled out whether we use aftercare or not - and the friend request form. Then there's the one form I have to fill out twice: the medical/immunization form.<br />
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I've come to realize this form is created only to torture me since I must obtain my children's immunization records and then transpose those records onto the form. Each year I peer quizzically at the immunization form from the doctor's office, where they've abbreviated certain shots under one name, and tried to match them up to the form, where they've abbreviated them another.<br />
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As the years have gone by, my dread of doing this paperwork has sometimes become a deciding factor in whether my kids will go to camp, kind of like the "Sponge-worthy" Seinfeld episode. Is it paperwork-worthy? Is one week of camp worth it to fill out the paperwork? A resounding no. Two weeks? Three?<br />
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I jump back in the pile, pick up my pen with my claw-like hand, and finish the task.<br />
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<em>Are your kids in summer camp? How voluminous are the enrollment forms? Every get overwhelmed and discouraged by paperwork? </em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-62443497295381091262011-06-13T22:03:00.005-07:002011-06-14T01:23:19.408-07:00Blame it on the Blemishes<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_0UsektW9OyG43pMOvKhYxSocaGTX6d1BsQd2kkpNSECEtPc7emMt9oklvG224O4-gpbxuQ1ADztClgGbSzM3te7KBvkqWrbIgI4RZ0Tsds8w3CG8SME3WVtRoStPSrcjLhgg9ylyxRs/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200px" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_0UsektW9OyG43pMOvKhYxSocaGTX6d1BsQd2kkpNSECEtPc7emMt9oklvG224O4-gpbxuQ1ADztClgGbSzM3te7KBvkqWrbIgI4RZ0Tsds8w3CG8SME3WVtRoStPSrcjLhgg9ylyxRs/s200/images.jpg" t8="true" width="158px" /></a></div>I have an important motto I've made up myself that is related particularly to the raising of children. At least I think I've made it up. <br />
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It didn't occur to me quite away because, frankly it wasn't needed. It occurred to me when Bar Mitzvahzilla went from being a smooth-faced twelve-year-old several years ago, into a raging, hormonal thirteen-year-old. And then the pimples came. <br />
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It was a normal night. The kids were up too late. The husband causing a ruckus in the house because those same kids had managed to mess up the house in the most minute ways; ways that seemed intended to drive us to the brink of insanity. I was hiding in my office, trying to get some writing done and wondering - lamenting - why my office didn't have a door. Oh yeah, I know. Because it's the living room.<br />
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Then Bar Mitzvahzilla marched in for a goodnight kiss. No knocking because, of course, there was no door. He presented a face full of pimples for me to kiss. And I, of course, kissed the pimples. <br />
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It's not like I spent my life purposely kissing pimples. The common wisdom when I was heading into high school was that you could catch these things if you made out with a boy who had them. Since I already had enough of them to send makeup counter ladies running in horror from their stations in the mall, I wasn't going to purposely rub faces with someone who had worse pimples than me. There was also all the other stuff we believed about our skin right then: chocolate causes pimples. Rubbing alcohol will cure pimples (topically, not as a drink...). Use a blackhead popper on your pimples (hello, scarring!). We even believed that one day soon we'd grow out of them.<br />
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And, just like my nascent belief, as a teenager, in the fact that a ten-pound weight loss could change my life, I also believed that if I strategized just right, I could declare war on the pimples, and fix my social life. <br />
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I don't think Bar Mitzvahzilla was philosophizing quite as much as I had, as an adolescent girl. But he did march into my office for a kiss. So here's my motto, reiterated in case you missed it, used in the fullness of loving parenthood: Kiss the Pimples. And then get that kid to a dermatologist.<br />
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<em>Any horrible acne stories from your youth? Archaic beliefs or practices? Any experience with this situation? Anyone else spend a lot of time in the dermatologist's office and not for Botox and Juvederm?</em><br />
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<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">Linda Pressman, </span></strong></em><em><strong><span style="color: purple;">Author of </span></strong><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1308028548&sr=8-1"><strong><span style="color: blue;">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</span></strong></a></em><br />
<em><strong><span style="color: purple;">available on </span></strong><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1308028548&sr=8-2"><strong><span style="color: blue;">Amazon</span></strong></a><strong><span style="color: purple;">, </span></strong><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Sisters-Survivors-ebook/dp/B0050JBVG8/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&m=AG56TWVU5XWC2&s=digital-text&qid=1308028548&sr=8-2"><strong><span style="color: blue;">Kindle</span></strong></a><strong><span style="color: purple;">, </span></strong><a href="http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/looking-up-linda-pressman/1030885896?ean=9781456470685&itm=1&usri=looking%2bup%2blinda%2bpressman"><strong><span style="color: blue;">Barnes and Noble.com</span></strong></a><strong><span style="color: purple;">, </span><span style="color: purple;">libraries and other retailers</span></strong></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-61497012482498855932011-06-05T21:51:00.002-07:002011-06-05T22:35:44.787-07:00To Sleep or Not To Sleep<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWjg1gVPSETB7w1B4CH6G9NG7FmO7Uc-fVRroVhnMLvfyxsU23pbEDuZMFaKpuHALhPt9IbyvGWz2NA3pTKAeVcqA2UuNfabsXQsEvoY2pLCnixn4nAzQehY8bb6xU8fM-VDuO-xyOCrY/s1600/Baby-20-Car-Seat-.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWjg1gVPSETB7w1B4CH6G9NG7FmO7Uc-fVRroVhnMLvfyxsU23pbEDuZMFaKpuHALhPt9IbyvGWz2NA3pTKAeVcqA2UuNfabsXQsEvoY2pLCnixn4nAzQehY8bb6xU8fM-VDuO-xyOCrY/s1600/Baby-20-Car-Seat-.jpg" t8="true" /></a></div>One thing about giving birth to Bar Mitzvahzilla - besides him being born a pound and a half, besides the whole prematurity thing, besides the coming home with an apnea monitor and an oxygen tank - he was never one of those kids who would fall asleep in the car.<br />
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We had to go a lot of places when he first came home from the hospital. Four times a week back to the pediatrician to monitor his weight gain and recovery from recent hernia surgery; a cardiac surgeon; an ophthalmologist; other specialists. And they were all very far from my house, like near the hospital where Bar Mitzvahzilla had been born. Could he have fallen asleep one time?<br />
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Instead I'd be driving along the interminable mountain passes of Phoenix on a thirty-minute ride downtown with a squalling by then four-pound baby sunk into a rear-facing car seat facing away from me in my car. Do you know how this drove me nuts? Can you imagine how many times I had to stop to make sure he wasn't strangling on something in the sunken tunnel of his car seat? Because he couldn't really fill the thing up.<br />
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Now Bar Mitzvahzilla is nearly sixteen. A big clunk, really, and thank goodness for it considering his beginning. I pick him up at school and he is irritable. Everyday. I guess he doesn't remember those heartbreaking scenes from next to his incubator. Finally, we descend into silence after he realizes that, whether he likes it or not, one particular day I'm bringing him to our store to work. Then it gets too quiet. He's sleeping.<br />
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A kid who could never even close his eyes as a tiny newborn now finds that the motion of the car lulls him tranquilly to sleep, in bright daylight and at nearly sixteen-years-old. <br />
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I shake my head at the contradictions of parenthood, happy for the silence from my teenager, wondering if every time he fights with me I could just somehow trick him into the car and make him falls asleep. Then I drive on, towards our store.<br />
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<em>Did you have a kid who fell asleep in cars or stayed alarmingly awake? Any annoying sleep tales of teenagers?</em><br />
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<em><span style="color: #4c1130;">Linda</span></em><br />
<em>Author of <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1307338069&sr=8-1">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</a></em><br />
<em>Available on <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1307338069&sr=8-1">Amazon</a>, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Sisters-Survivors-ebook/dp/B0050JBVG8/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&m=AG56TWVU5XWC2&s=digital-text&qid=1307338069&sr=8-2">Kindle,</a> <a href="http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Looking-Up/Linda-Pressman/e/9781456470685">B&N</a>, and other retailers</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-74222216268094828382011-05-25T21:36:00.002-07:002011-05-26T00:48:03.007-07:00Daughter vs. the Wall<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQzH8_BPCyG0g5XzzKmM5jjwKwMxt-soC286BEDK0mKsl3goW4SEBhAwvXJoPQ5BgOLujSfVZhFRP8hK3gwnUbSnTGcnrOJC3ExO0I-vI5CLBHV34APTAADiSSAE_T0g0jQo9yg6zF9vk/s1600/untitled.bmp" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQzH8_BPCyG0g5XzzKmM5jjwKwMxt-soC286BEDK0mKsl3goW4SEBhAwvXJoPQ5BgOLujSfVZhFRP8hK3gwnUbSnTGcnrOJC3ExO0I-vI5CLBHV34APTAADiSSAE_T0g0jQo9yg6zF9vk/s1600/untitled.bmp" t8="true" /></a></div>Lately Daughter's been on a cleaning spree. Not of our kitchen island, on which she has scattered arts and crafts supplies and anything and everything she could dump on there. Not of our family room where she has snuck plates, wrappers, cups, and cans, treating "her chair" in the middle of the room like it's her private garbage can, while not having anything actually make it into a garbage can.<br />
<br />
Instead, she's suddenly started cleaning out her room. First she had an idea, which she presented to me and Husband in compelling detail: her room is too small and we need to take the wall down between it and the room next door. She had some drawings handy for how this would be accomplished, had chosen paint colors, and had a white board showing the eventual placement of her futon (she doesn't actually have a futon) and her walk-in closet (ditto). Every morning during my recent illness, the first thing I saw when I cracked my eyes open was Daughter standing at the foot of my bed with her white board and easel, ready to provide me with a detailed presentation on the subject. And, by any chance, do I happen to have the blueprints for our house laying about? <br />
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Husband expressed some doubt that she could actually keep a space twice as large clean. "Let's see you clean up the room you've got and then we'll talk about it," he said. <br />
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His statement, I'm sure, is what triggered the cleaning frenzy. <br />
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This is how our lives were before: once a year or so, Daughter would lure me into her room on some pretense, I'm not sure what, and I'd find myself still sitting there about two days later sorting through junk, Daughter by my side and two gigantic bags nearby - one for giveaway and one for garbage. We'd slowly move through the room until it was clean, or at least vacuumable. <br />
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But Daughter, in her present cleaning frenzy, is handling things differently. She is slowly divesting herself of everything in the room, till now it resembles a prison cell or nun's chamber. Basically, there's a bed in there. She's emptied out her dresser, one whole side of her closet, packed away some chairs she once loved, and has told me she doesn't need her bookshelves anymore. Or books. <br />
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I'm unsure of what's exactly going on here. Is she moving out? Because she's only eleven. I'm all for the kids moving out but I had kind of thought they'd wait till they got through middle school.<br />
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Husband thinks he can hold her off, keep setting new and more miserable cleaning tasks for her, trying to avoid the home renovation issue, the big daughter/small room issue. But I know what's going to happen. With Daughter's indomitable will, once she's done with her emptying, she'll take down that wall herself.<br />
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<em>Do you ever recognize a will stronger than your own in your child or children? Messy kids? Determined kids?</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-50824934882996678882011-05-16T23:54:00.000-07:002011-05-16T23:54:04.381-07:00From the Sick Bed<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhb7MHiCPakwt3tLuKsekoPzDyAL5j-IYE6ULr4aqnzaS3dZaPN9h7XYEAUGr7A1loNA93NRJCEXzBs9NUVduAMhHMsC-b9YQ_Bbv6KHkfvQHaYmP1TtYzlLVG4EIHAmNCxk_2dazICjHI/s1600/sick_in_bed.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="181px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhb7MHiCPakwt3tLuKsekoPzDyAL5j-IYE6ULr4aqnzaS3dZaPN9h7XYEAUGr7A1loNA93NRJCEXzBs9NUVduAMhHMsC-b9YQ_Bbv6KHkfvQHaYmP1TtYzlLVG4EIHAmNCxk_2dazICjHI/s200/sick_in_bed.jpg" width="200px" /></a></div>Okay, so I'll admit it, I've been sick. Like really sick. Right when I'm supposed to be full of energy, launching <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1305613872&sr=8-1">my newly published book</a> into the stratosphere, promoting it, signing it, mailing it off to editors and columnists, what am I doing? I'm laying in a heap on my bed, my eyes replaced by Xs, like a cartoon. <br />
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And what's worse is that I have a mysterious type of ailment. Part asthma. Part exhaustion. Part massive throbbing headache. Could it be the years upon years that I've spent staying up till two in the morning writing the darn book? Could it be all the years of getting four to five hours of sleep per night, all catching up with me at once?<br />
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Gone are the days of me waking up like a robot, showing up at my exercise class, magically appearing everywhere I'm supposed to be. Now I'm lucky if I can lift my head from my pillow. I crawl out of the house just in time to pick up Bar Mitzvahzilla from high school at 2:20 each day and then I creak over to Daughter's school to get her at 3:15. And that's the total of my big daily activity. I walk back in the house and fall back on my bed exhausted. I can feel my muscles atrophying.<br />
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Yet, somehow, when Husband hauled me off to the ER, I wasn't sick enough for them. They triaged me right to the bottom of the list, making me wait six hours and talking to me about the "impression of not being able to breath." Although with all the tests they did I guess I know it's not fatal.<br />
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You know you're really sick when, instead of the daughter taking care of the elderly mother - like I normally do - the eighty-year-old mother has to call me ten times a day worried sick about whether I'm dying. Today she even had my nearly deaf eighty-six-year-old stepfather call. I could hear her yelling at him in the background as he fumbled with the phone, "WHAT BOB? YOU CAN'T ASK HER HOW SHE IS?"<br />
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And, because of the hearing thing, because of the eighty-six-year-old thing, when he asked how I was, it was just simpler to say, "Fine, I'm fine." <br />
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And maybe I will be. Tomorrow.<br />
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<em>Ever had illness get in the way of your plans? Ever had to become the patient when you've been the caretaker? </em><br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNmCX4Z0LU5XrzLmAAwz-gan3tkjO52-WXkastaj_z7405H5vZTv5UTwh-6XJ7TUvKghASU59hPQ7wN1pwz1bz2i5mwpC6rN1zShdfMJiLkUeiMELzVjfslocK01SPBz7oGi2GzDaHK78/s1600/2178772_cover.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNmCX4Z0LU5XrzLmAAwz-gan3tkjO52-WXkastaj_z7405H5vZTv5UTwh-6XJ7TUvKghASU59hPQ7wN1pwz1bz2i5mwpC6rN1zShdfMJiLkUeiMELzVjfslocK01SPBz7oGi2GzDaHK78/s200/2178772_cover.jpg" width="150px" /></a></div><em>My book is available now on Amazon, Barnes and Noble and on Kindle!</em><br />
<em><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1305613872&sr=8-1">http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1305613872&sr=8-1</a></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-25476947668749330932011-05-09T22:01:00.004-07:002011-05-10T00:42:38.214-07:00The Un-Mother's Day<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBIrnSmqIFF72qj0aoemUSd3u70ryKQrP1AqDar64Qxu109FKlY8jDs8NVaWovB2NJ-gf0DFauuetW7-OtUKojnfcgda82h7qp09GvLijePXlA-O1VVr7PegB5rxOM6vmDIszECcDurFY/s1600/birthday-present.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="135px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBIrnSmqIFF72qj0aoemUSd3u70ryKQrP1AqDar64Qxu109FKlY8jDs8NVaWovB2NJ-gf0DFauuetW7-OtUKojnfcgda82h7qp09GvLijePXlA-O1VVr7PegB5rxOM6vmDIszECcDurFY/s200/birthday-present.jpg" width="200px" /></a></div>I didn't really get anything for Mother's Day. Even I had to confess that I didn't deserve anything. <br />
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It wasn't because I'm not a good mom. I'm a good mom. When you take the Exemplary Mom days and the Pathetic Mom days and average them out, I think I come out a solid, average Good.<br />
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But here's why I didn't insist on a monetary gift. In our family we have a bunch of our own personal "holidays" that come up in rapid succession early in the year - Husband's birthday in January, our anniversary in February, my birthday in March. If you wiggle that around a little (and, compulsive shopper that I am, I do wiggle it around a little) I manage to loop Chanukah in from December, Valentine's Day in February, and spread it out into Mother's Day in May, which has the affect of leaving Husband not knowing if he's coming or going. It's a nonstop spoiled wife festival, to the point where I practically have him buying me a present for his birthday in January and wondering if perhaps we should start celebrating April Fool's Day, with him the fool. <br />
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So this year I let him off the hook for Mother's Day. We celebrated with the one mother we have between us, mine. A present for her. <br />
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I'll make do with the one I got for Ground Hog Day. <br />
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<em>Do you get spontaneous gifts from your partner or do you feel like you need to hypermanage this issue? Are you a great, spontaneous gift-buyer? </em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-88912143133068802672011-05-01T23:54:00.001-07:002011-05-02T01:33:03.232-07:00Kitchen Dysmorphia<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB22IeKYf-7w-MkEmrds0C5op223ymEyoEOJlDbYY5HDjmH9rFTyiwuEPx-wl6eW_dijpVYcTp3_Ja2-7IZkTt0YmWEF7pay4J9yrXbiKTly1TGus-zZ_yYinfr4Ait0O75uD_Kv5FVfw/s1600/42382-clip-art-graphic-of-a-chef-stuffing-chickens-in-a-stock-pot-by-djart.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200px" j8="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiB22IeKYf-7w-MkEmrds0C5op223ymEyoEOJlDbYY5HDjmH9rFTyiwuEPx-wl6eW_dijpVYcTp3_Ja2-7IZkTt0YmWEF7pay4J9yrXbiKTly1TGus-zZ_yYinfr4Ait0O75uD_Kv5FVfw/s200/42382-clip-art-graphic-of-a-chef-stuffing-chickens-in-a-stock-pot-by-djart.jpg" width="165px" /></a></div>This week, having a little more time on my hands since <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1304323873&sr=8-1">my book got published</a>, I returned to my kitchen. <br />
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Not that I haven't been in there at all during the months I was editing the manuscript. I was in and out. When procrastinating my work, I'd grab something to eat in front of my TV, watching the stupidest shows I could find (Hoarders and Say Yes to the Dress). When not procrastinating, I'd grab something to eat in front of my computer.<br />
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This week I got ambitious. I started cooking.<br />
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My family looks on my cooking ambitions with some trepidation. For some reason, maybe it's coming from a gigantic family, maybe it's the deprivation my parents experienced during the Holocaust, maybe it's because I used to be much bigger and part of me wants to eat a house, but I can't seem to cook normal quantities of food. I only cook for armies. <br />
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When I make barley soup, I overestimate the amount of barley needed - the barley pearls are so tiny, who can tell how many is the right amount? Suddenly I end up with sludge-like soup, quicksand textured soup. A mallet is needed to stir.<br />
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This week I made a chinese noodle salad. I used twelve packages of ramen noodles. Twelve. <br />
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But then, of course, I panicked. What if twelve packages of ramen noodles weren't enough? Maybe I should put in an extra pound of spaghetti noodles? Well, I'm here to tell anyone who's curious about it that you can't actually boil twelve packages of ramen noodles and one pound of spaghetti in any normalish kind of soup pot, unless maybe you're a witch and own a cauldron.<br />
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So I'm the bane of my family. They're terrified to see me enter the kitchen, to see me hauling up my gear - three, maybe four, soup pots for the one dinner that night, bags of potatoes and onions - they're terrified because there always will be a lot of leftovers. Like for the whole neighborhood.<br />
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And tonight? I threw those noodles away. <br />
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<em>Does anyone else cook the wrong amount of food all the time? Cook for an army when there are many less than that living in your home? Worry about never having enough?</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-74569921134638735352011-04-24T22:08:00.001-07:002011-04-24T22:17:52.961-07:00Book Come Lately<div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">A long, long time ago - okay, December - I said that my book would be out in about two weeks. That would have made it the middle of January. Needless to say, it wasn't. My book, <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Looking-Up-Memoir-Sisters-Survivors/dp/145647068X/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1303701130&sr=1-2">Looking Up: A Memoir of Sisters, Survivors and Skokie</a>, was just released this past Tuesday, April 19th, which would make it about three months longer than the two weeks I estimated. That's all. About normal for my usual combination of procrastination and angst. </div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">Why did I say that my book would be ready to roll in two weeks? Was I insane? Was I intent on causing myself full-blown depression and paranoia? Did I need even more pressure on myself than the regular pressure I had of just trying to write a book about being raised by somewhat insane Holocaust Survivor parents in a Chicago suburb in the 60s, the sixth of seven daughters, where normal was very abnormal, indeed? </div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">Obviously, I said it'd be done in mid-January for a couple of reasons. First of all, I believed it. Second of all, I underestimated the poisonous combination of a neurotic perfectionist (and, trust me, a book can never be perfect) and a book project. Third of all, I had to get used to the idea that writing memoir is like running through the streets naked. Did I really want to run through the streets naked?</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">Then the intervening months took place. Like anyone who's gotten used to blogging, I missed it, but felt I'd pinned myself in. The next blog entry had to be about the book being published. How could I skulk back here and act like everything was normal with no book in hand?</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">So here I am, back in Bar Mitzvahzilla-land, the blog now moss-covered, stale, somehow frozen (so to speak) on a snowy December day in Flagstaff, my kids now four months older. Now, thank goodness I can leave the insanity of my childhood behind and get back to normal - the usual insanity of my everyday life. </div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;"><em>Do you miss blogging when you take a break, or miss reading blogs if you take a break from that? Do you write down topics so you can cover them later or are they forever gone?</em></div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">__________________________________________________</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">If anyone would like to lend a hand with my virtual book launch, email me at <a href="mailto:barmitzvahzilla@hotmail.com">barmitzvahzilla@hotmail.com</a> or leave me a comment here. All help is appreciated! </div>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com26tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-29391811121182837232010-12-27T23:29:00.000-07:002010-12-27T23:29:21.549-07:00The Need to Freeze<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyJNk9GC3wirqUprZ_15jVQdqHbfcDb_qgDY8sFU-dIxn88BZHEz1ka3hhvQorMq-vDQAlL953VqhdbIwYdYmO8g8EiXekLTa0bCyzSyWx6s4OaqRqRJsvvSh5pEgSmF9rLzc99RmeADE/s1600/sledding.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" n4="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyJNk9GC3wirqUprZ_15jVQdqHbfcDb_qgDY8sFU-dIxn88BZHEz1ka3hhvQorMq-vDQAlL953VqhdbIwYdYmO8g8EiXekLTa0bCyzSyWx6s4OaqRqRJsvvSh5pEgSmF9rLzc99RmeADE/s1600/sledding.gif" /></a></div>There are many things illogical about living in Arizona. There's the summer, for instance, when we get very excited as the weather "cools down" to 105 degrees. There's the general weirdness of people decorating cacti for Christmas because that's one of the only living things in the front yards. Okay, there's even the general weirdness of being a Jew in Arizona - being rare, like a unicorn or Big Foot.<br />
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But one of the strangest things about being an Arizonan is the way we all go seeking snowy weather in the winter, like there's some genetic need to freeze built into our DNA - like the salmon swimming up river in Washington State - and we head out. Since I was born in Chicago and Husband was born in Milwaukee, you'd think we'd have worked this need to freeze out of our systems as kids, but no, here we are, in the middle of our now annual exodus to Northern Arizona.<br />
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So even though I've lived in Arizona since 1973, even though I hadn't seen snow since my that last winter in Chicago, last year when we got to Flagstaff it all came back to me. I immediately remembered it all. Layered clothes, bundled up, always prepared. Similar to the Brownie I once was, but the snowy version. And last year it made sense. It was a glorious winter wonderland. Freezing cold with pristine, untouched snow everywhere, we didn't have to bother with a dedicated sledding area; everywhere we looked was a sledding area. We went sledding behind our hotel; we practically went sledding to our car since each night it was frosted in. <br />
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This year, except for some gray, piled up frozen slush, there's virtually no snow. Patchy hillsides with slush, mud, rocks and trees, so we can break our necks hurtling down a mudslide on our speeding snow disks. <br />
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We try to put a positive spin on it for Bar Mitzvahzilla and Daughter. It's still cold, right? It's good to be cold, right? How nice to be away from home on vacation! And look at the nice hotel we're staying in! Free breakfast everyday! And now, with all that stupid sledding out of the possibilities, we can spend all our time eating out, right? Let's go to another bookstore, kids!<br />
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Are we going to get away with this? Let's put it this way: Daughter was packed a week before we went on vacation. She made a list of all the restaurants we'd go to ahead of time and the days we'd go to each. Both kids are up at the crack of dawn, dressed and waiting for Husband to awaken and take them to the hotel breakfast. Children this neurotic aren't going to let us get away with anything. <br />
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Next year: Tucson.<br />
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<em>Do you go on vacation seeking something in particular at different parts of the year? Have you ever sought out snow intentionally or is the seeking always for beach and sun? Anyone else have kids this driven?</em><br />
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<em><span style="color: blue;"><strong>I'm happy to report that I'm getting close to publishing my book and hope to have it available in the first half of January. I'll post here when it's available in both in print and e-book form and am sorry I've been so sparse lately with blog posts. Thanks to everyone for all your encouragement.</strong></span></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-51917736498163821522010-12-16T23:35:00.000-07:002010-12-17T00:10:02.807-07:00A Wildebeest Kind of Winter<div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEii3I2J310ZIaTBmIrQF0EaBtMW7o_26BYThBtJKK6Zy6leWYj7I9zRjxnfwj3SXCjXfBTpooyTaxaSmbBA9O5Lohv75H7tEA74NUtteVBDapP97QF8xIyY1amNLTCTPraPQ5q2k8Rbg8w/s1600/WildebeestSm.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="height: 240px; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; width: 334px;"><img border="0" height="240" n4="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEii3I2J310ZIaTBmIrQF0EaBtMW7o_26BYThBtJKK6Zy6leWYj7I9zRjxnfwj3SXCjXfBTpooyTaxaSmbBA9O5Lohv75H7tEA74NUtteVBDapP97QF8xIyY1amNLTCTPraPQ5q2k8Rbg8w/s320/WildebeestSm.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;"><br />
</div><div style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none;">I was driving in my car with Bar Mitzvahzilla, then three, in December 1998. Of course there was no snow, this being Arizona - instead there were Christmas lights on all the palm trees and cacti in the neighborhood, especially the yard of one neighbor who seemed determined to offset our unlit Jewish house by putting up so many lights that his house could be seen from outer space.</div><br />
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I was ready for my his questions. He'd been too young the previous two years to notice anything as we drove around our tiny Jewish world - to our synagogue, to his Jewish preschool and back to our Jewish home. This bubble had to burst sometime.<br />
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It wasn't like he hadn't been exposed to the outside world. My family is so diverse it's like a United Nations conference. I was ready for an age-appropriate discussion of religious pluralism. Sure enough, I noticed he was staring out of the window, his mouth open, his eyes wide.<br />
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He pointed at the neighbor's house and yelled, "Mom! A wildebeest!"<br />
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<em>This </em>I didn't expect. Of course, I knew there wasn't actually a wildebeest in my neighbor's front yard. Even <em>my</em> HOA couldn't be that lax. But I said, "A wildebeest? Where?"<br />
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He was pointing at a reindeer. I thought quickly. Should I tell him the truth or should I let him have a little magic for one more year?<br />
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I said, "Wow! A wildebeest!"<br />
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Sometime earlier that year Bar Mitzvahzilla had become obsessed with the movie "The Lion King." After watching it every day for a year, I came to like it, too. For some reason, his favorite scene was when Simba's father Mufasa fell off the cliff into the stampeding wildebeests. He re-enacted this in our home day after day, clinging to the clifflike edge of my bed, while I, Mufasa's evil brother, Scar, flung him off the cliff. Bar Mitzvahzilla would fall to the floor onto a herd of toy wildebeests that just happened to be stampeding by on the carpet.<br />
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So he was a little obsessed with wildebeests. Having them appear all over the neighorhood that December was an truly a wonderful thing. <br />
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After he noticed the first wildebeest in our neighborhood, we started taking walks each night for wildebeest sightings. There were the ones who moved their heads up and down as they fed, the ones that looked off to the side, watching warily for lions, the ones that were frozen, caught in mid-prance, or skittering in the hunt, running from hyenas. If something didn't make sense - like the wildebeest that leapt in the air with the blinking red nose - Bar Mitzvahzilla just ignored it. His only disappointment? That there were no elephants adorning my neighbors' lawns, no giraffes with their heads sticking up as tall as the palm trees, and no actual predators lurking in the bushes.<br />
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Eventually it ended. He grew older, and we had the talk we needed to have. But for a while, our neighborhood became an African savannah, with wildebeests magically standing in each yard and lions just around the bend.<br />
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<em>Has your child ever made up their own answer to a question that was very different than the answer you may have given? Any obsessions with movies, watching them over and over again? Do remember seeing magically through your kids' eyes?</em><br />
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<em><span style="color: #990000;">* Although I've always written original pieces for this blog, I wanted to tell my Wildebeest story so I reran it here. This piece originally appeared in the Jewish News of Greater Phoenix on December 11, 2009. Here's the link to the original piece: <a href="http://www.jewishaz.com/issues/story.mv?091211+winter">http://www.jewishaz.com/issues/story.mv?091211+winter</a></span></em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3156821579309080273.post-35720516967763907142010-12-07T23:29:00.000-07:002010-12-07T23:29:42.319-07:00Mother, Interrupted<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgN8yqJyAqLi5jk8aGfnyJWMrcWqFrd8TZEcEscm9m-KmebAUOHYlMySHp4mpbAbvS8zraFJbc17MJT0nXpeYq5WoGthmKn7w45dAECiZKxmmxElavY4Od5k2Gz9LGiwMt6uwIe6z-Chfc/s1600/vmo0035.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" n4="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgN8yqJyAqLi5jk8aGfnyJWMrcWqFrd8TZEcEscm9m-KmebAUOHYlMySHp4mpbAbvS8zraFJbc17MJT0nXpeYq5WoGthmKn7w45dAECiZKxmmxElavY4Od5k2Gz9LGiwMt6uwIe6z-Chfc/s1600/vmo0035.jpg" /></a></div>Here's what happens when your mom is diagnosed with Alzheimer's. At least if you're me. There's this total scoffing at the doctor's diagnosis. There's the trotting out of a hundred tiny facts your mother remembers even better than you and you're thirty years younger than her. There's the railing at a system of treating the elderly that throws them into categories: one gets dementia, then next Alzheimer's. Next!<br />
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Then you notice that she loses a few words here and there. Easy words like the names of her favorite restaurant or the word "checkbook." Then you notice her conversation becomes a little constrained, topic-wise, like she only wants to talk about food, she can talk about it for hours, yet she only says the same thing over and over again - how good it is. You find yourself missing your mother and she's sitting right in front of you.<br />
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Then maybe there's an interim event - a fall perhaps, or maybe a car accident, in your case. And then there's no more room for denial. Denial packs a bag and slithers away in the middle of the night. When your mother is recuperating from her injuries, which means she's finally left her convalescing couch, her world becomes constrained. She stopped cooking during her weeks on the couch and now, she tells you, she no longer cooks. Nor your stepfather. Food just magically appears every day and, anyway, they don't eat much. Some rice, some noodles, maybe a piece of challah. And, yes, it's good. Very, very good.<br />
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The mother you had - the annoying, argumentative one, the one you used to butt heads with, the one who used to find a way to interject a Holocaust story into every conversation until you were sure you too had lived in the forest running from the Nazis, that mother has been interrupted. And in her place? A different mother. A different kind of mother. A mother and a daughter and a child all at once.<br />
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Interrupted.<br />
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<em>Have you ever had diagnostic news where your first reaction was denial? Have you ever had a relationship interrupted abruptly due to illness or otherwise, something other than you had planned?</em>Linda Pressmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01809808676659629555noreply@blogger.com23